Monday 22 February 2016

Someone stole my heart

Halooooooooooo
i'm too excited to share my story to you guys. yes someone just stole my heart huhuhu he made my heart beat so fast like olypmic runner. I can't mention his name but i can mention his nickname.
Aku terjatuh cinta dengan dia bukan disebabkan dia handsome or cute. ew he never cute at all, just kidding! But i fallen love with him sebab dia pandai jaga kehormatan perempuan. Seriously, respect gila pada lelaki macam tu and I'm glad because i knew you weh. Dia pandai jaga kehormatan perempuan macam mana eh? Okay this hari haritu pergi studio sebab jamming then teman kawan sekali, then masuk lah waktu solat maghrib, then aku pakai tudung yg agak jarang but tak pakai scarf, yalah because nak ambil wuduk then suddenly he saw me then ah yes for sure dia akan lambai then said hai. dan buat aku terkejut is, after dia said hai then lambai pe semua, then cecepat dia pandang depan sebab he saw my "aurat" and yas thank to Allah sebab dia tahu tahu je aku tak suka org bukan muhrim tengok aurat aku sebab berdosa. Then dekat rumah dia, u know what dari pukul 5:30 hingga pukul 9, me and ziemah lepak rumah dia sebab nak buat cover ajl then yas again this happen but lain sikit. Dia minta aku untuk scroll lirik lagu, yelah dia tengah main guitar then macam mana dia nak dia scroll lirik lagu tu so dia minta tolong aku scroll kan. Then dia nak ambik telefon dia, then yes terkena permukaan tangan aku, then aku terkejut then he so gentle man, he said sorry, sumpah aku terkejut. I thought that dia tk say sorry or what, but he did. Yeap i should admitted i love him bukan disebabkan dia handsome but yes apa yg aku nampak dari mata aku, dia pandai jaga kehormatan perempuan. Aku takut aku ni jenis yg syok sendiri sebab entah sometimes aku rasa dia anggap aku sebagai kakak, sometimes tak. Ha itu yg pelik dn agak bengang gak. Sometimes rasa nak diluahkan, tapi takut nanti jadi benda lain, its better tak yah huhu. Takpe, if he true my destiny, inshaaAllah Allah akan tunjukkan! Aamin. Thank you sangat sangat fai and being in my life. I hope you akan sedar

Thursday 31 December 2015

2015

It's been a long time I hadn't update blog so yeah let me story about the title is 2015.
Firstly I should admitted that  had a lot memories I made before end of 2015. 2015 is the year which I will end of my high school so yeah it was so sucks after end of school because I should left school, friends and  teachers.  This is my opinion, I don't know about your opinion because we have own opinion. To me, 2015 is the best year, maybe? I didn't say the best year because I had alot memories, fought and mostly struggle about SPM. Mostly, I had memories with best friend at school. I had fought a lot with them, maybe it was my mistakes. I didn't say that I giving up but it's okay Allah knows everything so I should ignoring and  achieve my dreams. Seriously, I really hate fight with people I love. And yes this is so sucks because I should letting her go. Seriously I really don't want letting her go because had a lot memories we made almost 5 years. now we broke up. I will writing this for you. Dear you, if you read this, you should know that I misses to holding your hand, your voice and everything, thanks a lot being part of my life, you're really meant in my life but Allah knows the best for me and you too. Take care of yourself dear, I will pray to Allah that all your dreams come true, please don't forget about us. Had a lot test from Allah but I didn't blaming Allah because Allah planning is better than you. With the test, Alhamdulilah  I became strong before this. Do not blame God testing because for sure have lessons. Yeah mostly I had fought about friend, from fought, I had learning something which we know who is true friend or fake friend. So be careful to choose friend  because mostly it's hard to find a true friend but alhamdulilah I found a true friend. She always beside me when I need someone, she never tired to listen all my problems. To be honest, I never had friend like her. She always gave advice when I don't know how to solve my problem. 
From this point,  you should tell everything to Allah, share everything then after that you can share with someone can holding your secret or problem.  I don't want mention her name because I had a lot true friend but I'm glad to them because always beside me, you guys really meant to me. 



Next memories I will never forget is when laughed together with my gang at school. I still remember we laughed and shared food when rest and you know what, I misses it but nothing can happen because we separated, it's okay. Dear gang, do not forget about us also our memories okay?
Sweet memories maybe?  I'm too shy to share but I think I should. It happened at school, someone boy waved at me. seriously I never knew him before.Actually had story this I and my best friend were sat class when rest. I holding bread then I looked up because I heard someone called us "pengemis" then suddenly he waved at me. I know everyone can do that for you but do not you think this is weird? To me this is so weird because yeah I never knew him before this. Then he keep waved to me but all my best friend never trust me so yeah I proved to them that I'm not lied to them. Then he said "Hi" to me and I reply. On Hari Raya, he invited me to come to his house. Really expected he invited me, so yeah I came to his house, then we laughed together. Aziemah wanted to make cover songs for AJL so yeah I followed her step. Then she asked me for invited him to played guitar. Then we spent 2 days together to make cover songs. First day, we practised at his house. We practised from 5:30 pm until 9 pm above. At his house, I don't know what's wrong with you babe, why you being so cute in front me? You know what, your "opah" keep watched us, duh I'm too shy. I still remembered when I focused watching tv, then you making a joke . you beat me with  handle guitar with cute faces. The next day, you keep asking to me that I'm fine or not. I think I fallen in love with you but I don't want expected too much with you because will hurt. it's better I telling to Allah either you are my destiny or not. If you're not my destiny, it's okay because ALLAH HAVE BETTER PLAN THAN YOU. I should close about his story because you will getting bored.

This story was so deep for me. I don't know because why maybe I lost 3 favorite uncle in my life. They passed away because heart attacked. Dad told me "in this year, ayah lost 3 brother and dad misses it" we misses them too dad, Al-fatihah to uncle sharifuddin, sallehuddin, also pakngah.

Last not least, someone just came to my life, first he became stranger then best friend. I never expected you being my best friend. We made memories alomst 1 years right but never met? I still remembered the first day we start talking in wechat. I still remembered you used icon with black pictures right? And youre face so closed with shukri yahya lol, then we talked a lot together and you know what? I misses be us like before. Yeah we keep faught together then berbaik semula lol. And yes i should admitted I never have feelings towards you but before I have but I getting jealous when someone come close to you. Weh redha, please realize that I'm so fucking jealous when someone come close to you. But you have your own life but whatever happen please don't forget about us. Yeah i should admitter i made a lot mistakes and you still stay in my life. Hey you think, it's sweet? Joking. I'm glad you're my best friend okay? Walaupun we are not become together or you're not my destiny, I always mention your name in my Dua. You know why when we faught and i always sent a long text, because you're really meant in my life. Huhu open minded please, i said like that because i don't want to lose you walaupun you're not talent about "pujuk" but it's okay because only me talented with that. I hope you know that I never tired to recover our friendship even a lot things happend between us. I will pray to Allah that all your dreams come true also you will meet your destiny at the right times okay? Yeah this story about you muhd redha. Don't forget about us and i misses us, please la percaya lol.


If you have problem with friend or someone, first share with Allah then solve it as soon as possible okay? Trust with Allah because everything happend for a reasons. I love all of you

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